Faith: I Find Hopes in Hopeless Way
I go back to 2020, when the soul, mind and body doesn’t know where it belongs.
I feel pretty upset because some of the things didn’t go according to my plan, I started to feel that everything is falling apart and I can’t do anything about it. I’m blaming myself because I think I’m not good enough. I think I’m a mess and there ain’t any progress in my life.
When I know I’m lost, I know where to go. I found a way back home and have the connection again with my root. God blesses me with an amazing and wise brother, a friend who always knows me since the first before anyone else. His words are like water in the desert, he comes with wisdom and warmth, I know his journey and I know he’s the person with his words. We talk about how faith has faded away since we think we know all and we are the strength from all the achievements. It’s a huge turning point in my life and I know that enough is enough. I need to gain my faith or hopes back.
I am being too hard on myself, and I decided to stop it there. When these negative thoughts take me over, I breath and relax. I close my eyes and talk to someone or thing that is greater than me. I remember my greatest accomplishment. Memories I’ve shared with my friends and family. I reminisce those days and believe that life is not always about the difficult times.
I am more than my bad days. I’m more than my mistakes. I’m more than that voice at the back of my head saying I won’t make it.
From all up and down, the crisis and hopeless ways I finally reach the missing pieces in my soul.
Only faith can give you peace in the most dramatic and chaotic times, knowing that all this is happening for a very good reason, believing that there is something much bigger that will be revealed to you once it’s all over. Trusting that God will not make you suffer unless you’ll find ease of comfort or wisdom after it all ends.
Only faith can get you through the hardest of times without losing your mind because some tragedies are impossible to comprehend, some tragedies are impossible to understand and some tragedies don’t make sense at all, but at the end of the day, faith is believing even if you don;t understand, faith is hoping when things seem hopeless, faith is holding on when you’re supposed to give up. Faith keeps you sane. Faith makes you strong.
Only faith can make you positive when all the odds are against you. Faith makes you believe in miracles. Only faith can heal your deepest wounds. We’re all human and we get scared and hopeless and think of the worst possible outcomes but at least faith help us not to worry or spend our lives overthinking everything because we not worry or spend our lives overthinking everything because we know that God is in control, we know that eventually, we’ll get what was meant for us and what’s better for us even if we don’t always predict it or wish for it. Faith makes you unafraid of the unknown.
Only faith can bring you closer to happiness because it makes you confident; confident in the universe, confident in your future, confident in yourself and you ability to handle whatever comes your way, confident in finding the resilience within you to get through the stickiest situations because you’ve been through it all before and every time faith was the only solution. Every time faith got you out of the darkness. It got you out of your own misery. Only faith can make you live with content and ease rather than fear and anxiety.
Only faith can stand the test of the time. People will support you but they won’t always understand you. Therapists might help you but they won’t go to bed with you every night to silence your thoughts. Instant gratification will only serve you temporarily until you realize that it doesn’t take the pain away. Nothing will heal you if you don’t have faith. Nothing will help you if you don’t believe in something bigger than what you’re going through. Nothing will make you feel whole unless you find “God”. Only faith can get you through life alone because if you have faith, you don’t really need anyone to heal you and if you have Faith, you have everything.
